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Pattern? Maybe.

January 16th, 2010 (11:43 am)

current mood: indescribable
current song: Talking to Sid on the phone.

January 16th, 2008

So I'm a little afraid of what seems to be going on. The part of my life I've labeled "The 8 (that's right, now it's 8) months of hell" seems to be continuing by possibly at a different pattern. For seven months, something bad happened to me (or someone that I know) every 20-21 days, and now it seems that it has taken a turn. Every four days, something bad has happened the past two times. SO!
21-21-21-21-21-21-21-4-4 (if these numbers mean anything to you, PLLLEEAASSEEE tell me)
Those two fours there at the end occur in the same month. This month. HOWEVER, my mom/sisters (same day) and dad/grandfather (same day) were ALSO four days apart. SO the pattern MIGHT have changed to birthdays and hopefully not every four days. I'm literally afraid to keep living.
My grandmother has cancer. They just found this out this morning. Skin cancer. I'm really scared for her, and I'm kind of speechless. I really don't know what to say. All I can do is hope she's okay.
On my mom's birthday, my dad was in the hospital because he had a seizure at work. This is obviously his own fault. He has diabetes and for anyone that knows him, they know that he doesn't give himself shots like he's suppose to every single day.
Call me superstitious if you want.